The Exchange Student Situation


I can officially say I had the weirdest 36 hours of my life this week. Basically, it was around Tuesday lunch time, I’d texted my mum earlier in the day to say a sports fixture may be cancelled, but we didn’t know. The reply I recieved was something along the lines of “if you need to be picked up at 4, that’s fine, I’ll be there at 4 to collect the French exchange student.”

No one in my family takes french.

Eventually it turned out that my brother had expressed an interest in having an exchange student, but since he doesn’t take the language, he was put on the back up list. Some family let them down. So we had an exchange student.

Which was fine. Until we realised, my dad was due to come home after quite a long time on Sunday. So on the Wednesday night we thought this was something we should mention when he called.

My dad had different ideas. Literally right after my mum had messaged him about the extra child, he showed up. Roughly 5 days early. And he still had no clue we had an extra child in the house.

That was a really entertaining one to explain to him.

Anyway, he didn’t seem to mind too much so everything was OK, but it was still pretty entertaining.

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AwkwardHuman xx


Returning To My Old Riding Stables?


Today I went back for my old riding stables for a lesson. Basically at this place you have to buy your lessons in 6’s, and I had one left and they wouldn’t refund that. So I had to take the lesson. (It sounds like I didn’t want to, I didn’t mind).

So I showed up, had a look to see which horse I would be riding. The horse I rode, is fine unless you want to jump. Then I realised that we had my least favourite instructor, so I would be jumping. I haven’t jumped in over a year, and to do it on a horse that doesn’t really like to jump, let’s say it was entertaining.

During the course of the lesson, I found that I really didn’t like the instructor and the group, well it just wasn’t my old group. When it ended my mum asked if I wanted the occasional lesson there. My answer was no. In my trip there, I found there wasn’t really anything left for me. All the staff and instructors that I liked when I used to be there have left. My favourite horses are gone. And the group just wasn’t the same.

The lesson wasn’t a bad lesson, just I feel that I’m better where I am now.

I just wanted to share the rundown of that lesson. I don’t really know why. Please like if you enjoyed and follow me to see more of what I have to say. My socials are at the top.

AwkwardHuman xx



While I did my GCSE in art, I found that I was kind of good at using knives… For a while now I’ve been doing papercutting when I have time and I wanted to share some of my work with the internet. I also kind of want to spread it as an alternative to self harm, I’ve been sharing some of my work on instagram using #cutpapernotwrists.

Anyway, enough talking. Here’s some of what I’ve been up to.

Deer skull with pattern- my GCSE final piece.

Christmas bauble mounted on different colours of card, the original of this has actually gone missing but at least we still have a photo.

Copy of piece by Sarah Dennis, this was one for my GCSE coursework.

Zebra, I think I posted this on my instagram, but I’m not sure.

Buildings, “Arabian Nights” theme, this photo was from it was still a work in progress.

Copy of work by Emma Van Leest, for my GCSE coursework.

Mandala, I was very bored.

Foxgloves, for my GCSE coursework. Actually the first time we realised that I was worryingly good with a knife. The original of this is also currently missing.

I hope that you like what I have done and maybe it will inspire some of you to either make some art or find a better use for a blade. If it does, use #cutpapernotwrists and I will hopefully see it.

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AwkwardHuman xx

Gender Dysphoria: My Story


I want to start by saying, this is my experience. Please do not use what I experience as a ticklist or a diagnosis, I am not an expert. If I remember I will list a bunch of more useful sites at the end of this post.

If you’d asked me a little over a year ago, I wouldn’t have had much of an idea about what gender dysphoria is. To put it simply

“Gender dysphoria (GD), or gender identity disorder (GID), is the distress a person experiences as a result of the sex and gender they were assigned at birth. ” Wikipedia

There are a few things surrounding agender people and gender dysphoria. We are less likely to experience gender dysphoria. That means some of us still do.

Up until around September last year, I would have fallen into the “most” category, I didn’t really think I did. I’m going to make it clear, I have not been diagnosed with gender dysphoria by a medical professional, however, I do have a lot of symptoms of it and personally, I’d say it’s the best way to describe how I feel at times.

Anyway, back to the story. When I joined my current school, I went back into the closet. At my previous school, my gender and sexuality was something known among most of my friends. At the current school, it became clear very quickly that it is a very homophobic place and the people are not trustworthy. I’m out to one person in the whole school.

Pretending to be female absolutely crushes me inside. Since I’ve been at this school I’ve had so many days where I just feel so small inside because I’m pretending to be a dead person. I’m living by a name I just want to get rid of. That’s part of the reason I really don’t want to learn to drive, whenever I look at my provisional licence I just want to cry. I’ve spent more time crying on my bathroom floor in the last 6 months than I have since I was bullied in year 6, 7 and 8. I feel more tired than I ever have. I have days where things are so bad, it’s enough of a struggle to basically function, let alone to carry on like everything’s normal and go to school.

I tend to get triggered by things such as people insisting on addressing me by my birth name instead of the gender neutral shortened version. Also things like transphobia triggers me. I also find that it’s worse if I’ve been left alone with my own thoughts for too long.

Most of the time nowadays, I’m feeling shit because I live in circumstances where I have to pretend to be female, I can’t express my gender identity how I want, people use the wrong pronouns and they address me by my birth name.

I hope that some people can relate to this. Eventually things get better, apparently, that’s what I tell myself anyway. Please like this post or leave a comment if you enjoyed it. Follow me to see more of what I have to say. My socials are at the top.

AwkwardHuman xx

Student Beans App Review


A few months ago, I bought a laptop, while we were in the shop, the person working there was like “if you’re in sixth form you can use an app called Student Beans to get a discount.”

Basically, I’m worth knowing now.

Student Beans is free to get, and you can get it if you are in post-16 education or university. All you need is an email address at the place of your education, or an acceptance letter. It means you can get discounts in a lot of brands, such as Body Shop, Dominos, Curry’s/PC World and a shit tonne more.

The app that you download on your phone is easy to use, which is always useful, and unlike some apps (Snapchat) doesn’t make my phone crash whenever I open it.

I’ve already reccomended it to a number of people who I know in real life, and I’m continuing to do so because it’s so easy and I’ve saved a lot of money using it.

All you have to do is find the discount you want to use, whether that’s online or instore. You get a code and all you have to do is show it when you go to pay. Simple.

I hope that this post is useful to people who are currently in post-16 education. Let me know if you find this helpful by giving it a like or comment. Follow me to see more of what I have to say. My socials are at the top.

AwkwardHuman xx

My Anti-Vegan arguement.


Before I even start here. I will probably offend a reasonable number of people.

I can’t stand a lot of people. What a surprise. But one group of people that really piss me off are vegans that sit there promoting veganism because meat and animal products are cruel. I’ve been meaning to write this since I watched a really biased episode of Food Unwrapped and going on twitter to complain about it, and I feel that since it’s Veganuary or whatever they call it, this is an appropriate time.

I can just about get vegetarianism, although personally meat production doesn’t bother me, I get that it bothers some people.

What I don’t get, is vegans. I have a few reasons for this. Number one. Wool. You have to sheer the sheep for reasons such as flystrike. It doesn’t get cold because it produces lanolin pretty quickly. Taking the wool is doing the sheep a favour, so you may as well do something with it… Right?

Number two. Eggs. Most birds lay an egg most days, then forget about it and leave it. If you leave the eggs, then all you are doing is attracting rats, which will not be good for your birds health, so you have to take them. Most of them will not be fertilized, so again, you may as well do something with it.

Number 3. Milk. When I went to do my research for this one, it kept chucking biased articles from Peta at me. However, I’m fairly sure I heard from somewhere that if you don’t milk cows, the cow can get infections. Again, doing it favours. 

I hope that if you aren’t vegan, you found this entertaining, if you are, I would say sorry if I offended you, but that would probably be bullshit, stop being biased in forcing your views on others. Give it a like if you enjoyed it. Follow me to see more of what I have to say.

AwkwardHuman xx

People I Hate On WordPress 


I’ve talked about the people of Snapchat, of Instagram, and of Twitter. After that I thought I was done with this series. But then I remembered… The site I use to bitch about these people is also home to many types of people that I hate.

That’s right. It’s time for People I Hate On WordPress. As with all the others, there’s a lot.

1. The ‘beauty blogger’. We already have Zoella. Whatever 99% of you isn’t anything she or any of the others haven’t already done, better than you did. My point is, no one basically wants to see a shit version of Zoella, either get some original content, or piss off.

2. The Constant Poster. I hate this person with a passion. You do not need to post anything any more than once a day. I get really fed up of these people because most of their four posts a day, are bullshit. I’ve had to create a new email account so I don’t have to be annoyed by post alerts being with my personal emails. We don’t need or want these people on the internet. 

3. The no context photo poster. Oh great, that’s a nice photo. I care because? Exactly. I don’t.

4. The person that needs to proof read. I’m not going to lie, I used to be that person. My logic was I didn’t want to edit or filter what I had to say. Then I realised that my clarity and typos was really bad. So I stopped, and now it just really pisses me off to see people that so clearly have not proofread.

5. The novel writer. I say “novel”. What I mean is large chunk of text. I failed English OK, I don’t like endless amounts of words, I get it sometimes we have a lot to say. Do me a favour. Use paragraphs. Use pictures. It makes it less intimidating. Also, lists are good. 

I think I’ve covered most of the irritating people I’ve come across. This post is a joke, so please don’t take any of it too personally. If you enjoyed it, please give it a like. If I missed out any leave a comment. Follow me to see more of what I have to say, you don’t neccesarily need a WordPress account. My socials are at the top.

AwkwardHuman xx



2017 is basically over (thank god.) I’m not going to lie, I’m so ready for 2018. 

 (when I saw this from Dillon Francis I was like… Yeah. That belongs on my post discussing how shit 2017 was.) 
As I do every year, I’ve looked back at my post about 2016, realised how amazing it was compared to 2017, and also realised I made no resolutions except to have an amazing 2017. FAIL.

Anyway, I am going to make resolutions for 2018.

1. Get out of the closet some more. Since it happened in 2016, but not so much in 2017, and I find that I just feel better for being out of the closet.

2. Have a better 2018 than 2017. Hopefully that shouldn’t be too hard.

3. Be more positive. In 2016 I was good at this. Not any more, and I want my blog to be a more posisitve space for all kinds of people to connect. I’m aware that in the last few months it’s been a depressing read.

4. Grow the blog. Self explanatory. 

Anyway, moving on… Looking at this years highlights?

  • I went to Kos, where my brother slept through an earthquake
  • I got some GCSEs
  • I went to Burghley
  • I came out a bit more
  • I got to 200 likes on the blog (yeah it’s taken the best part of 3 years, but I’ll take it).

    I think that’s probably about it… It’s been a bad year. Hopefully though, I’ll manage my resolution and 2018 will be better. If not, at the very least I need some catastrophic fails so the internet can laugh at me.

    I hope that 2018 is amazing for anyone who’s reading this. Feel free to leave some of your own resolutions down below. Like this post if you enjoyed it. Follow me to hell me achieve my 4th resolution (and to see more of what I have to say.) My socials are at the top.

    AwkwardHuman xx

    Things I Hate About Christmas


    By the time this is published, it will probably be Christmas Eve. So merry Christmas. 

    Moving on, it’s Christmas, so me being me, there are certain things I hate.

    1. Elderly Relatives. You sit there talking to them. Most things they say end up being “what?”  Then shortly after Christmas dinner, they fall asleep with some crap on TV, but the moment you try to change the channel they wake up.

    2. Music. Come on, it’s shit.

    3. Christmas cake. We have one that’s been on the go for about 2 years because no one likes it, and it for some reason, doesn’t go off. I don’t trust that.

    4. Being sociable. My family get stuck in a confined area with each other, no phones allowed out. It’s really crap because, as previously discussed on other posts, I don’t like my extended family, or my closer family.

    5. Twitter. The only things you see all day are “ohh it’s Christmas.” Then photos of people who are having a much better day than you.

    In all seriousness, I do like Christmas (I mean, there’s a shit tonne of food, the lights and stuff) but I thought it would be fun to highlight some of the more crap aspects, because I don’t get why people say they like those things… Someone explain.

    Anyway, have a great christmas. Like this post if you enjoyed it. Follow me to see more of what I have to say. My socials are at the top. 

    AwkwardHuman xx

    Stuck With My Killjoy Aunt


    I’m in Devon at my aunt’s house. Which, like most things involving my family, is shit. 

    Now why? Hmm. The oldest daughter has her boyfriend over, so I get ignored. The next one is a crazy feminist 1920s bitch who annoys the fuck out of me. Then their oldest son sleeps until midday and just plays on the Xbox with the younger son and my brother. The uncle is a dickhead and my aunt is a killjoy.

    Why is the bitch a killjoy? Hmm. 1- she’s really over religious. 2- she would only let us take one dog down (my biggest problem) and 3- she’s just so over the top on safety.

    Yay. Then to make things worse, when we woke up this morning, my dog (who is with us) can’t walk. So I’ve been really worried all day because her back legs just aren’t working. 

    Still, tomorrow we will take her to a vet and hopefully go back home. It gets better people. 

    AwkwardHuman xx